Jun 5

June 5, 2017

When Faceless Rescues Count the Most

When Faceless Rescues Count the Most

At sixteen, I had a cyst that ruptured, causing me to lose over half the blood in my body. I was sweeping the hallway bathroom in preparation of my brother’s homecoming when a gush of blood flooded my legs and then the floor. “Concerning.” I thought. I’d already had my period that month, and I’d certainly never had a period... Read more

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Jun 1

June 1, 2017

When We Drown in Our Not Enoughness

When We Drown in Our Not Enoughness

“Not to be mean, Mommy, but Daddy is nicer than you.” These are the words my five-year-old daughter graces me with as she fills our minivan with her endless chatter. So far, I’ve been chastised for my lack of passion in response, my tendency to stare blankly ahead, and general lack of entertainment value. I wonder silently if Daddy might... Read more

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May 30

May 30, 2017

How to Live Life in Spite of Chronic Pain and Fatigue

How to Live Life in Spite of Chronic Pain and Fatigue

How do you explain chronic, debilitating fatigue to a world that wakes up well-rested? How do you explain sickness and limitations being the norm to a people who’ve only known health and limitless living? Can you? I remember (quite woefully, now) before the hostile takeover when sickness was still something I could hide, push beyond for the most part, I... Read more

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May 25

May 25, 2017

Your Grief Journey, as Unique as Your Loss

Your Grief Journey, as Unique as Your Loss

At the ripe old age of 34, I’ve been to more funerals than most people my age. Some I’ve attended as a friend or family member, but most I’ve officiated at as a pastor. Each one has been as unique as the person who died, each has been an honor, and each has had its own lessons to teach. Here’s what... Read more

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May 22

May 22, 2017

When the Greatest Challenge Is Believing for More

When the Greatest Challenge Is Believing for More

There’s a verse in scripture where a man cries out, “Lord I believe, help my unbelief!” This broken man is in tears as his soul cries out. Desperately, he wants to believe all things are possible. He wants to believe for more. He doesn’t want to be held captive by fear. Yet, his pain is so real. Perhaps, it’s more... Read more

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May 18

May 18, 2017

To the Most Beautiful Woman I've Ever Seen: Love Doesn't End Here

To the Most Beautiful Woman I’ve Ever Seen: Love Doesn’t End Here

You stood in front of me in your brown velvet tracksuit as you embraced your daughter one last time. Your eyes brimmed with glassy tears as you turned to me and said, ”She almost died last year. She’s still having symptoms. Keep in in your prayers, will you?” I told you we could pray right then if you’d like, but... Read more

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May 15

May 15, 2017

How to Know When You’re Grieving Well

A few months after my mom died, my dear friend asked me how things were going. I spoke with her about staring up into the sky and wondering if my mom was looking back. I told her about times I laid my head down to sleep after a perfectly fine day and cried until my throat and head throbbed. I... Read more

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May 11

May 11, 2017

IBS: A humorous Look at a Posterior Predicament.

IBS: A Humorous Look at a Posterior Predicament.

My raunchy rump has been very bad lately, so I think that qualifies me as a bad-ass. Well, it’s not actually my rear end that’s been naughty, it’s the things inside of it. You know. I hate to even say the names. I never thought I was a prude, but a few years ago, when that part of my anatomy started... Read more

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May 8

May 8, 2017

5 Tips for Working While Chronically Ill

5 Tips for Working While Chronically Ill

Before we go any further if you have a chronic illness and you’re working I want to applaud you. Chronic illness travels with us wherever we go. It doesn’t care about deadlines or dreams or unreasonable bosses. So if you’re still working, you’re clearly handling life like a boss. On the flip side, if you came to a point where you... Read more

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May 4

May 4, 2017

When You Aren’t Sure You Can Live Like This

When You Aren’t Sure You Can Live Like This

Like a bird I soared, high above the clouds, soaking in the sun, inhaling the sheer goodness of life. I breathed in possibilities and exhaled delight. Surely, the sun was a more golden hue than it had ever been before. Was that a lullaby of babies laughing I heard? All was right with the world. And then I plummeted to... Read more

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