How to Find the Light When It All Goes Dark
Today started out on an aggravating note. The repair guy at the house there to fix some damage from our lightning strike showed up late, causing me to run late for a meeting with an editor. My head has hurt for days, and it decided to pick today to amp up the pain to ten.
There were some troubles with a cat sitting job for a family friend. I forgot to check on the cats this morning. Called my mom and she checked on for them for me. Last night I was frustrated for reasons I couldn’t nail down, but after a passive aggressive social media post about the situation, my friends were there for me. They even forgave the annoying passive aggressiveness.
There are days I can’t take the pain my health issues create. I just can’t push through another second. There’s no faking it til I make it. Hey coworkers, maybe I really am as fake as you think I am. Ha. On these bad days my friends are there. They don’t leave when I flip out over pain making me crazy or tell me I need to exercise more and not take so many medications.
There was a day not long ago I had to sit down on the floor in the middle of the cereal isle. It was sit or fall. For once, there were no crazy side eyes or dirty looks from strangers. A nice lady helped me. She said she understood, and I hadn’t said a word.
There are people in my life who stress me out more than anyone could imagine. I deal with so much judgement. It makes life so much harder, and honestly sucks the desire to try right out of me at times.Then I remember that it is people that make life worthwhile. Click To Tweet I think of my people. The ones who stay and the ones who sit with me in the dark and then help me celebrate the light. Then it is all okay. The people who aren’t for me cease to matter.
Thanks for the love, my people.