How to Clean up the Mess in Between Illness Storms

How to Clean up the Mess in Between Illness Storms

August 31, 2017 | Posted in: Mental Illness, Parenting and Chronic Illness

“Now, what?”

I asked myself a few months ago. After years, consisting of very long days, of family struggles with mental and medical conditions, the season began to change. At first, I dared not believe it. So many times, there had been brief glimpses of light as we forged through the darkness.  But, those moments seemed to fade quickly. Once again, we would be left trying to find our footing and walk forward together: my daughter, my two sons, my husband, and myself. To say that the relationships between us were strained would be an understatement.  When one person in a family struggles, everyone is affected.  

The dynamics between us do not resemble the picture I had in my mind before my husband and I started a family.  My daughter began treatment for Bipolar Disorder at 9 years old (she is now age 15). My older son (age 18) has battled anxiety and depression along with a host of unexpected health concerns along the way. The youngest son (age 13), whom I call the “comic relief”, manages mild anxiety.  None of their conditions define them, but, they do affect the climate of our home. It hasn’t always felt like the refuge I hoped my husband and I would create. We have tried to initiate traditions, affirm each other’s strengths, and attempt to carve moments of time together We have sought out therapy, utilized resources and  developed a support system. Humor has even found its way in. Yet, we couldn’t always keep the storms at bay.

Truthfully, the winds, at times, seemed so forceful that I wasn’t sure I had the strength to resist them. My husband and I could be a strong force together; yet each of us developed our own methods of survival. We also felt as if the storm was invisible to everyone else. When your kids are physically sick, it is usually visible and garners sympathy.  However, mental illness carries a stigma. There are plenty of opinions regarding how to “fix” your child. “If we would just……..” Meanwhile, the unpredictable nature of episodes and triggers as well as the financial stress, and school concerns mount.  And in the midst of it all, you are trying to sustain your marriage, pay bills and pray for endurance, provision, and healing.

However, it occurred to me one day that this long season of storms may have finally transitioned into a season of calm. When you are so used to living in survival mode, you don't always realize that the storm has weakened. Click To Tweet Weeks no longer seemed packed with doctors’ appointments, evaluating medications, financial distress, school battles, emotional burnout. It may be the beginning of a season of restoration. On the surface, a calm after the storm sounds welcoming.  But, truthfully, the implications are daunting.

How do you begin cleaning up the mess?

Branch by branch;piece by piece.  I remember a horrific storm that erupted suddenly about 10 years ago. When it was safe, we made our way outside to access the damage. Thankfully, our belongings remained intact.  However, our street and our yard were filled with tree limbs and branches scattered everywhere. In order to move toward restoration, you must begin cleaning up the mess one branch at a time. It may take a while. And I’ve learned (reluctantly) that’s O.K.

 

How to Clean up the Mess in Between Illness Storms

 

Restoring our relationships with each other will take time. One branch at a time. I often wonder how my kids would relate to one another had our situation been different.  I will never know the answer. It would be tempting to dwell on the “what ifs.” but that would require looking back.  We are heading forward. The medical concerns have not resolved. The winds may indeed return. But, we have found space to breathe and rest. We have found our footing once again and set our eyes on God; who is in the business of making things new. I find inspiration in the promise given to the Israelites.  

  See, I am doing a new thing!
    Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
(Isaiah 43:19 (NIV)

 

Stephanie writes about sensing the voice of God and encountering the Holy Spirit in the midst of our everyday routines. A member of the Redbud Writers’ Guild, her pieces have appeared on Her View From Home, Mudroomblog, Altarwork, Amnity Coalition, the Mighty and The Redbud Post.  In addition, her passion for those affected by mental illness finds itself woven into some of her writing. Stephanie lives in Illinois with her husband and three teens. She blogs at http://stephaniejthompson.com/ and can be followed on Twitter @s2thomp and facebook: https://www.facebook.com/StephanieThompsonspeakerAndBlogger/ .

 

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2 Comments

  1. Jennifer Selle
    August 31, 2017

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    Oh Stephanie, This article spoke to my heart and i shed a few tears. So many “if only’s and what if’s” being able to see in your writings how you cling to God is inspiring for me. Thanks so much <3

  2. Stephanie Thompson
    September 1, 2017

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    Jennifer, your journey has never been far from my mind. I find comfort in knowing that many of us are walking these paths together in spirit.

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